I sit with her sometimes

I'm not in a happy mood.
I don't call this a bad mood, I think that it's important to feel like this sometimes.  I hate feeling angry, that's a bad mood.  Hurt, not a good feeling.  Upset, bad mood.
Sad, important.
God, I sound about as fun as Emily Dickinson right now.

I don't know why I feel sad.
Actually, I do.
As much as I'm used to it, I don't want to be that friend anymore.
The one who sits there, and tries to interact, but ends up feeling like a dickhead.
The one everyone wants to shut up.
And the one who wants to shut up.

Okay, obviously it's not that dramatic.
Still.
I just feel like everyone thinks I'm the least mature. and they might be right sometimes.
I mightn't be as weathered as them.
I mightn't be as clever as them.
Or as adventurous.
Or as exciting, different, funny.
But I thought I was fun at least.  Or my company was enjoyable.
And we did go to Brisbane together.
But I have, for a long time, felt like the one left out.
I used to just ignore all this, in Japan, I mean.  The difference here is, they are used to different.  In Japan, there are just a lot of racist people.
I dunno.  Maybe I just don't understand people.

In other news, I worked eight hours today, which was good for my bank.  It was also a good day, so I wasn't too bored or crabby.  Until about five-thirty, when I realised my break was an hour late.  I got my (ten minute-) break at a six-fifteen, in the end.
Fun times, man.

Oh, and I've lost two kilos.
Joy.

Finally, Joanne's off Masterchef (old news, but I'm still celebrating).
Best news I've heard in ages.

J'veux ton amour et je veux ton revenge.

Je ton amour.
I don't wanna be friends.

Oh god, I love this picture so much.

I've been thinking about doing an analysis of the symbols in the Alejandro video.  It's really good for analysis, actually, because unlike her other videos, it's not narrative.  Well, it is, just more... cryptically.  I like being able to do smart things on my own time, not in class.

I've started an exercise sting.  I need to lose weight (duh, I'm a boy on the internet) so I'm making a conscientious effort. I feel slightly nauseous tonight, though, I'm sure this will pass as I get more fit.

Today was sports carnival.  Sian and I bought $35 worth of food between us, like caesar salad, pikelets, jam, margarine, chips, lollies and chocolate.  We (with the help of Marli, Emma and Soph) ate most of it today, won't be spending so much tomorrow.

Anyway, today was good.  Morning was spent under the tent gorging, then in the afternoon, we did high jump (I just crash-tackled the bar).  Then they continued to watch high jump and I went and played the "traditional Indigenous games," which were comprised of a very violent game of something similar to hockey and a game where we beat each other with pool noodles.  I went psycho on Gypsy.
Then we went over to triple jump.  I failed something chronic, but I'd never done it before, so I have an excuse.
It was a thoroughly good day, except for Sian being a dog act and refusing to let Marli and me come over.
Also, I lost my shoes for about an hour, but I eventually found them.

I'm really sad because Mirella (our pet Finn/exchange student) is going home this week (leaving Gladstone this weekend, anyway) and she won't be at school next term.  She really is lovely, I'm gonna miss her so much it's not funny.  She's the best Finnish exchange student I know of.

Someone might be listening...

I spent most of today in classes with very few people.
Period one Modern History?  Four people.
Periods two and three Religion and Ethics? Nine people.
Periods four and five IPT? Me.
Period six English? Four people.
It was good, out of all my classes, Religion had the most, and we talked about uni, mostly.
I'm really conflicted.
I don't know what I want to do.  I want to do Law, I know that.
I don't want to pay for university.  I wouldn't mind going to ADFA.  But I'm not sure I want to join the armed forces.  I'm not convinced either way.
I don't know what to do.
Story of my life.

I've thought about it because Sian is.  Sarah is.  IDK if that's for me, though, or because I'm afraid to lose friends Sian (mostly her).

I want to live with Jade. I could do the ADFA scholarship program stuff... I just don't know what I want
I'm going down a road.
I don't want to be alone. I want Sian and Jade and Marli and Emily and Emma and Mitchell and ... ad infinitum to be there, but they won't all be.

Agh, so depressingly complex.

I got the iOS 4.0 update today.  So good.  I have the best home screen background

And add the butter cookies

I wish I could make one of these.  I love Rilakkuma.

I've spent the last week watching Weeds a ridiculous amount.  I'm up to season 5. :D

I got my Math B marks back today, I got an A, another A and a C.  (=B+)

Which means that this term I got a C!
Usually I wouldn't be happy about that, but because I was SUPER SCARED that I was gonna fail, I am happy.
:/

My partner for English is Gypsy, which will be good.  She's clever.
We have to find a good poet first.  I'm thinking Emily Dickinson, she's really depressing, though, so I'm not sure.
If you've got any ideas, dear reader, please do let me know.

Have you ever laughed when you were crying?  It's a remarkable feeling; an intense blend of emotion.
I'm in a strangely pessimistic mood.

Ima go watch some more Weeds and then sleep.

love ya.

Brissity bannity boo.

I had a pretty good long weekend. Sian, Marli (and Sian's Mum) and I all went to Brisbane on Saturday. We drove up to Rocky and stopped at Macca's for breakfast. Just to shake things up, Marli decided to get a migraine.

Go, SUPERAIDAN!

Like a champ, I jumped up and sprinted across the highway to the servo to get two types of panadol and a bottle of water. I felt awesome.

We got into Brisbane about 12.30 and we went the hotel. We stayed at the Marriott. We dropped our bags off (Marli flirted with Sam, the concierge).

We met Christian, Ellah and Blake. We all went to central station and got Macca's again. Sian threw my drink on the ground; I left my chips in Blake's bag.

We got all cozy on the train and then went down to South Brisbane. We walked over to pride, got stickers, sucked helium out of balloons and had chicken schnitzel wraps.
There was a Rocky Horror show going on.

We went back to Central Station. Marli and Ellah were going to be late for their train so we had to get to the hotel and back quickly (we were getting Marli's bag). Sian and I were walking in step, quickly and then decided to sprint back. We nearly died.

Then, Christian and I walked Marli and Ellah back to the station. When I say walked, I mean we ran back. We found some glasses on the ground, Aviator ripoffs.

The next day we went to this nice restaurant called the Groove Train for breakfast. Our waiter was really polite, and Sian wanted to marry him because he had a "sexy" accent - he told us to go to the markets "juzt over near souspank." She wussed out of asking him
though.

We headed over to Queen St and did some epic shopping. I bought the Operator Please "Logic"/"Back and Forth Remix" record, ate lots of food and stood around for ages. We did asian sticker photos and went to a cool record trade-in store. Sian bought Mitchell a Muse T-shirt.

Monday we had to get up at 5 so we wouldn't miss our flight. Sian slept on me on the plane and we were dead when we got home.

All in all, a fantastic weekend with my best friend.

All we hear is Lady-o Gaga!

This is how I feel right now.
Actually, no, I do not feel like a beautiful blonde woman in a skintight outfight.
But still.

It's exam week, and I'm going to Brisbane on Saturday.
(Also, ignoring that I haven't posted in months and just moving on).

Have we all seen this?

I liked this. I do love Queen, and while I mightn't have mentioned it on here, I love Lady Gaga sooooooooooooooo much x 10000000000000001.

I wanted to go to the concert, but couldn't. Fuckin' Emily and Marli went though.

Aaaaaanyway. I'm going to Brisbane on Saturday with Sian and Marli. It's gonn' be wicked.

I'll finally get to meet Ellah! :D
Been wanting to for ages.
Hopefully, I'll get to see Aaron and maybe Cheche.

I'm watching We Will Rock You, the Queen musical. It's good so far.
I also watched Wicked recently. Ily Elphaba. I went to see Les Misèrables earlier this year as well. colon-dee.

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